today woke up quite early to go skool and play badminton wif huiyu and her mei mei's frends... was very tired actually cos ytd played too hard... but i promised huiyu tat i will go if her... so i still went... in the end waiyee and yinyin pang sei... left mi and huiyu... lucky i didnt say i dun wan to go... if not left huiyu alone... when we reached there, there is only huiyu's mei mei and waituck... i was so so so tired so i jus sat at the benches there... huiyu then went on and play badminton wif her mei mei... then 2 of their othe frends came and they started playing while i jus sit aside and watch... was really tired... but oso bored... huiyu was playing wif her mei mei and their frends played among themselves... i feel tat its so weird if i go and join their frends so i decided to jus sit aside... then dunnoe how long it has past then i went to the toilet... after i came back huiyu came and ask mi to join and all.... so we started playing tgt wif waituck and her mei mei... we played until 10 plus and i need to go cos i got my jap lesson... so i rushed off to my jap lesson feeling sweaty and stinky... haha...

jap lesson was pretty fun today... and i think time pass quite fast in today's lesson... haha... lesson is getting more and more 面白いです　でも　むずかしです... haha... then after jap lesson i rushed for my tutorials... was super tired and hungry... nv eat anything since morning until 330pm... haiz... 眠いですね...

haiz... then i met up wif huiyu they all... huiyu was like wanting to noe wat happened ytd... but everytime she asked then time and place and person doesnt seems rite... so we told her we will tell her later... then when pam waiyee and cindy came, pam told yinyin tat she knew the story already... then huiyu was a bit upset cos we didnt tell her... but at tat moment we are in the tut room wif the tutor in there... so how r we suppose to show her wat we did? cant possibly shake our shoulders and sing"dun cha wish ur girlfrend was hot like mi" in the classroom... so i told her we will tell ya later... then she slam her pencil box and all on the table... well its obvious tat she is unhappy... so i decide not to irritate her anymore... after the tutorials and lecture we rush to the bus stop and while waiting for the bus i decided to tell huiyu the story... but she say she dun wan to hear already... everything tat happen ytd she dun wan to hear... i was like wanting to cheer her up and she gave mi this kind of ans... i jus dunnoe how to make everyone happy... mayb i'm jus not capable of such jobs... its difficult to make everyone happy... really difficult... and i'm tired of it... this jus reminds mi of oprah winfey show tat i watched tat day... some famous singer went on the show and tok abt her life... she said tat after living for 50 yrs she found out tat the purpose of life is not all on making everybody happy... the most impt thing to make urself happy... so maybe i'm not too late in realizing tat...

maybe its my fault making my frends unhappy... i guess maybe my attitude suck to the core... i dunnoe... becos i still dun understand myself... i'm sorry if my stupid temper hurt my frends... i guess its better to look for my own mistake than looking for the others... haiz... hope everything jus goes back to normal... ciao... take care...