haiz... so many things happen today... all unhappy stuff... argh... i dunnoe is it mi or others are like tat too... i always think for other ppl but they jus dun think for mi... i jus feel very angry wif them... y r there ppl like tat on this world? maybe i'm too nice... too naive to think that everybody in this world is like tat... looking out for each other... when apparently most of them are not... they are jus selfish... they only think for themselves... disappointed... i'm jus too childish, too immature, too naive... maybe i shld learn from them too...

haiz... i'm feeling better now... in such a short time... is it good or bad? sometimes i think its bad... becos i dun even noe if i'm really ok... maybe i jus bottle all the bad feelings up... dunnoe when will my bottle be filled... and when its filled, will i be able to face it all at one time? 总是又想哭却哭不出来的时候... haha.. its been long since i cry... i guess it my character... i dun like to let ppl see my weak side... dun like to let ppl see i cry... haha... maybe i'm 爱面子吧... haiz... i feel tat sometimes its better to face ur own feelings rather than keeping it aside and think tat it will be ok... i guess i'm jus not brave enuff to face it... trying to act strong but not strong... haha... jus escaping...

心很烦，很痛。。。想哭却哭不出来的时候你会怎么做？还能做什么。。。只能让它痛下去。。。痛到不痛，痛到麻痹为止。。。