had my 2006 CA2 today... oh well... i guess i screwed it... haiz... its ok... i think it wont be as bad as 2001... haha... oh my way home... i overheard 2 girls conversation... they are jus sitting behind mi and they are toking so loud... so its not my fault... there goes their conversation...

girl 1: 你去看他的blog lor... 他写他爱上了他不应该爱上的人...
girl 2: huh... 他到底喜欢谁？
then girl 1 beat ard the bush cos she dun wan to tell girl 2 then she decided to give a clue... then girl 2 guessed it... then she asked...
girl 2: 为什么他爱上了他不应该爱上的人？
girl 1: 因为那个女的住很远... then 不可以送她回家...

duh... kids... wat a reason for loving somebody he is not suppose to... super lame rite? haha... come to think of it... they are actually quite innocence... becos he cant send her home so they cannot be tgt... simple reason... unlike adults... reasons for not being able to be wif the one they love is always complicated... not jus simple reasons like becos she stay very far... when ppl grow older and become more complex, they jus dunnoe wat they wan... they might not even noe wat their true feelings are... he tot he loved her... but actually he dun... its the brain that is taking control of everything... including the heart... becos the brain tells us wat we shld and wat we shldnt... we start to follow our brain, instead of our heart...

heard some news today... which leads mi into thinking tat he actually dun like her... maybe he jus like her accompaniment... when u really like a person, u would wan to see her and miss her... and when she said that she miss u too, u will be very happy and cant wait to meet her rite? isnt it a reaction that everyone shld have when they fallen in love? but he reaction is totally not right... maybe my sixth sense is jus rite... he dun like her... i feel that he likes someone else... some one that i think he really likes... some one that he will drive to somewhere ard her house to find her... someone... that someone... he is jus like wat i had said... dunnoe wat he actually wan... dunnoe his true feelings... maybe he had jus fallen in love wif that someone subconsciously...

haha... "subconsciously" is coming out again!!!! haha... all pam's fault... haha... but she is rite... i guess we all do fall in love wif someone subconsciously... becos none of us actually noe when did we start to like this person... feelings slowly grow and unexpectedly u found urself falling in love wif that person... when ppl ard u found out abt ur subconscious feelings and u realised it too, u will start to think if its true... and if u really wan to let the other person noe abt ur feelings... but wat if the person doesnt share the same feeling as u? to play safe... we will jus keep ur feelings and remain as frends... frendship last forever... relationship? i dunnoe... not as long as frendship i guess... haha.... maintaining a relationship is far more difficult than maintaining frendship... frends are forever rite? haha...

slowly losing confidence in love... haha... and i'm not ready to love i guess... its such a great responsibility to love someone... and i might not be able to handle my feelings if one day he were to leave mi... haha... of cos i do sometimes dream of mi and my prince being happily tgt... doing sweet stuff like wat they do in those korean dramas or idol drama... but when i wake up from those dreams, facing the reality, its really better being single... haha... no worries... no troubles... all i need is jus my family and frends... haha... and i'm glad that they are there for mi!!!! i love u guys!!!! muacks...

ops... tok too much rubbish... haha... got to get back to study... haha... bye peeps!!!