finally its the start of skool again... attend lectures... print notes... same old routine... maybe i jus like my life to be like tat... routine... something i can follow... something organised... and not sit down and think what shld i do nx... but such life is so boring!!! but i cant help it... its better than doing nothing... and then u will start to think alot of stuff... haiz... somebody told mi that i always think too much... too much and too far... i think i am... realised it... but can do nothing abt it... always tell myself not to think so much but still... my brain is used to thinking... always in the process of thinking... sometimes there are things that might worked out well but due to my "effective processing brain" i do not have the courage to take the first step... and this might bring problems to other ppl... there are times when i'm tired of myself... being so... i dunnoe wats the right word to use man... i jus want to find the best solution to all the problems... tats y i keep thinking... but its useless... cos there can nv be a perfect solution... and then i will be angry wif myself... cos i cant think of a way to solve all those problems... how many times i had been angry wif myself? i cant even rmb...

there are so many things tat i wan to keep forever... and i try very hard to maintain them... but there are always ppl who dun appreciate and dun cherish them... they jus take them for granted... i tried my very best... but i nv seems to be good enuff...

there are so many things tat i do not noe wat to do... taking my time to try to do something abt it... but some of them cant wait... they need immediate decision... but i jus cant bring myself to decide... i'm scared... maybe i'm jus trying to avoid... to hide... to buy more time so i dun need to face them... i seems to be a burden to them... due to my indecisiveness...

haiz... so emo... argh... jus wanna pour out all the emo at one shot... haha... new sem le... need to start afresh... haha... need to 振作! need to make some changes for the better... saying goodbye to 20 yrs old soon... saying goodbye to the lousy mi as mentioned in front... 21 yrs old may be a brand new start, a brand new life for mi... haha... need to be more mature liao lor... 21yr old leh... haha... got to start preparing now... haha... yup yup!!!! jia you!!!! haha...