little stories of my life

The Only Exception

2010-08-20T19:44:00.003+08:00

Maybe I know somewhere deep in
my soul that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
to make it alone or keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
keeping a comfortable, distance.
And up until now I swore to myself
that I'm content with loneliness,
'cause none of it was ever worth the risk.

nice... :)

Peace

2010-08-03T14:26:00.002+08:00

Wild Wild Wildwood West~

2010-06-17T05:45:00.003+08:00

yeah... its been so long since i last updated... haha...

finally... i have graduated from university... time really flies... its like only ytd when i first step into NTU... still a freshies... haha... hmmm...

currently in Wildwood, New jersey on a work and travel programme... haha... working in a theme park called Morey's Pier as a ride operator and a lifeguard... its really fun here... lots of cute guys and girls... nice ppl and all... haha... made lots of great frends!!! they made my stay here an awesome one!!! much better than expected~ haha... adapting very well to the environment... food and all still ok... jus PIZZA PIZZA PIZZA everyday... i think i will stop eating pizza when i get back to sg... haha... weather is pretty cranky here... when we first reach the weather was like freaking cold... its getting better now... but still sucks... cold~

working as a lifeguard is an interesting experience... wearing ur bathing suit in a cold weather... wif strong cold winds blowing at u... well... i survived... haha... then get kissed by the sun... i am super uber tanned now... or u can say BLACK... seriously... sunburnt and skin peeling... haiz... especially on my face... DISFIGURED... saded... freckles!!! eeeekkkssss!!! haiz...

working as a ride operator is fun too... it really depend on the ride u r operating... mi? kiddy ride... The Carousel... haha... isnt it every kids dream to sit on a carousel? operating this ride allows mi to see all the different moments of life tat involves the carousel... a baby's first carousel ride... a couple's first date on a carousel... elderly couple reminiscing their sweet moments of the infinite number of times of carousel rides on the carousel... a grp of frends spinning the spinning tubs... :) cant help but smile...

some days can be damn F*** up too... tats when comfort food comes in... although everyday i oso need comfort food like tibits... haha... wang jus cant stand my cravings for food and tibits... haha... top on my comfort food list, Reese peanut butter cup Blizzard!!!!! its really damn good... my fav!!!! i jus love Reese~!!!!! Doritos, Lays, Synders, Snickers... on and on and on~

oh wells... all in all, everything is good... and i am doing well... i guess i will miss this place... definitely will come back again when i have money~ haha... meanwhile, do miss mi~ i will be back soon~ :D

a little lost

2010-04-14T23:21:00.003+08:00

jus a little lost...

wat will my future be like?

what do i really wan?

haiz...

m i pressurizing myself too much?

maybe...

我很好那麼你呢?

2010-03-05T21:49:00.001+08:00

我很好，那么你呢？

We are the world 25 for Haiti

2010-02-22T21:23:00.004+08:00

united by love... coming together as one... awesome song... LET MAKE IT A BETTER PLACE!!!

*love the rap part!!!* :)

Pride and Prejudice

2010-02-17T20:39:00.004+08:00

happy chinese new year too all!!!! whee~ haha... 4 days of hols is sooooooooooooooooo short!!!! it ended jus like tat... saded... then back to reality... oh well... be4 returning back to the reality, went to kelly's house to play for almost the whole day... haha... was gossiping, fbing, looking at other ppl's photos and gossip again... so we decided to move off fb and do something else... which is watch a movie... was choosing between saving private ryan, the game plan and pride and prejudice... oh well of cos choose the game plan rite? dun like war movies and dun like arty movie... but kelly recommend the movie pride and prejudice... i was like hurh hurh... pls spare mi from the arty film... cos my impression of the book was like those very chimology book which super chim english tat i wont understand... plus the name is pride and prejudice... like the kind of philosophy kind of book... abt life and all... *shivers* so CHIM... haiz... but everybody wans to watch it... majority wins...

at the start of the movie, i was like omg... i falling asleep... plus they speak super fast with the british accent... PLS ON THE SUBTITLES PLS!!!! haha... the setting of the movie is very nice...the clothes they wear and their house... wah... super romantic... haha... and yes... i survived the 2hr movie... ITS WAS A SUPER NICE MOVIE!!!! didnt regret watching it... haha... maybe partly becos of the handsome male lead, Mr Darcy, and the pretty female lead Elizabeth... wah... didnt expect the story to be a romance story... yeah... i am sua gu... haha... its the greatest love story!!! haha... super in love wif Mr Darcy... he is so cute... haha... he said something tat reminds of somebody i noe... " I do not have the talent of conversing with the people that i have never met before" something along tat line lah... haha... when i heard tat sentence i turn to my frend and say, " meaning he is shy lah... use so many words for wat..." haha... this is my fav scene of the movie... hehe...

awww... heart wrenching... he jus the perfect guy!!! but such guys dun exist anymore... BLEAH!!!! but i learn alot from this movie... especially english... haha... the words they use... woah... amazing... haha... best phrase "i love you, most ardently"... wah... heart melt... haha... ok... i noe i ki siao liao... haha... yup yup... and i am reading the book now on my iphone (with a dictionary by my side)!!! haha... crazy over Mr Darcy~ haha...

we are all fools in love...

Quest for Immortality

2010-02-05T15:44:00.004+08:00

yoohoo~ finally took a trip down to the national museum to take a look at the exhibition for the Quest for immortality... the exhibition was great! especially the mummies... haha... well, it was an interesting trip for mi... but i dunnoe abt the guys... i bet those mummies bored them... haha... well... i'm sorry then... haha... :P

then was the buffet dinner... was super uber full... haha... thanks boss for the treat!!! hehe... and all the juicy gossip.... haha... 绵羊哥~ haha... argh...*shivers*... ok... watever...

oh well... other than the juicy gossips, i also found out a sweet story... haha... love is in the air~ especially when valentine's day is around the corner... haha... being able to find someone tt u r comfortable wif and is willing to let he/her becoming part of ur life is such a wonderful thing... haha... u need the right time, right place and right person... haha... but its difficult to have all these 3 thing to be right... yup... so have to slowly wait lor... haha...

hmmm... leave everything to fate... haha...

nice old song again... the mtv sucks... but the song is damn nice... haha... enjoy~

Happy 23rd Birthday Waiyee!!!!!!

2010-01-31T17:34:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WAIYEE!!!!

yup... today is miss waiyee's 23rd birthday... haha... old lor old lor... cannot be so lame lor... haha... had lots of fun celebrating her bdae in hats and vest... haha... we all look so cool and style... haha...so bhb.... but i dun care... haha... jus wanna wish her all the best in the last semester, and tat may all her wishes come true!!! stay happy and smile always!!! haha... hopefully i can attend her wedding soon... haha... i wan to attend frend's wedding lah... haha... so waiyee!!! faster find a boyfrend and get married soon k!!!! haha... kidding... dun kill mi... :P

Ultimate Goon Doo

2010-01-27T23:37:00.003+08:00

yes... today marks the day of mi being the goon dooest person on earth... thank you...

how i wish i can kill myself...

seriously...

STUPID

human nature

2010-01-16T09:45:00.003+08:00

wat differentiates human from animals? humans have desire, wans to improve and wans to be better... animals? they only have the survival instinct... humans are complicated... they are greedy and selfish... they wan everything tat is beneficial to them to stay by their side... but god is fair... u cant have everything tat u wan to be by ur side... u have to choose... and making a decision is the worst part of our life... but we cant escape from it... ultimately we still have to make a decision... its jus a matter of time... so... isnt it the right time to make a decision now?

life is always not so simple... y cant everything be wat i wan it to be? jus the right amount of everything... then everything will be fine... wouldnt it be? but it very difficult to have the right amount of everything... and sometimes its beyond our control of the amount of things in our life...

misunderstanding... my real intention... do u even noe my real intention? the tot of her happiness is of such great importance to mi... to the extend tat i am willing to lose the thing i have in my life... who wans to have changes to their life? how i wish everything would be the same... but i couldnt... its contradicting... and tats mi... i dun wan u to look bad... i would rather be the bad person than other ppl misunderstand...

my frend says i value too much on frendship... i tend to do silly things jus for frendship... if i treat u as my frend, no matter wat stupid and asshole thing u do to mi, u will still be my frend forever... it might hurt, but having a good night sleep cures everything... now u guys noe how impt u r in my life... :D

frends is all i wanted... but maybe its fated to lose it...

anyway, i found the song tat i heard on radio, which sound familiar but i didnt catch the song title and singer's name... its 最动听 by 房祖名 :)

Happy 2010!

2010-01-02T23:26:00.004+08:00

woohoo~ HAPPY 2010 everybody!!!! haha... well... hopefully a new yr, a new start... was watching mtv channel as usual... and i heard this song... the initial impression of this song is so.... the script... haha... the script style of song... then i went to read the comments... indeed it was the script's song... and they sold it to kris allen... haha... both versions are nice... haha... i like the lyrics... new yr resolution~ haha...

Sometimes we fall down and can’t get back up
We’re hiding behind skin that’s too tough
How come we don’t say I love you enough
Till it’s to late, it’s not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won’t come
We could make a feast from these crumbs
And we’re all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you
What would you wish you would’ve done

Yeah… gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we’ve been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
Every second counts on a clock that’s tickin’
Gotta live like we’re dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we’re dying

And if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbyes
Should be so careful who we live out our lives
So when we long for absolution
There’ll no one on the line

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we’re dying

Like we’re dying oh - like we’re dying [x2]

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live - like we’re dying

We never know a good thing till it’s gone
You never see a crash until it’s head on
All those people right when we’re dead wrong
You never know a good thing till it’s gone

Yeah… gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we’ve been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start livin it
Every second counts on a clock that’s tickin’
Gotta live like we’re dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we’re dying

Like we’re dying oh - like we’re dying [x2]

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we’re dying
Live like we’re dying

New Year Resolution

2009-12-28T22:38:00.005+08:00

busy

BUSY!!!

its all abt FYP...

report...

presentation...

no fun at all...

shopping...

movies...

JB kbox...

when am i going to do all this before my hols end?

haiz...

saded life...

TOTALLY SCOOMBZ~

2010

a new year, a brand new start... again...

hopefully it will be a good year...

new year resolution?

study hard, work hard...

as usual...

BORING!!!

y not something more interesting?

intermediate level Jap class...

guitar lesson...

photography class...

and i have always wanted to learn... KENDO!!!

i would have gone to NYP jus for the kendo club if not for my eng grades...

haiz...

jus a wish list...

most impt is family, frends n all my love ones,

good health...

happiness...

and world peace?

haha~

mi?

i jus wan everything to be good...

no need great...

no need excellent...

good is enuff...

am i a little greedy? :D

awaits 2010~

itunes forecast for 2010: Sarang Eh Ba Ji Da - Howl & R

SCOOMB holidays :(

2009-12-13T15:27:00.004+08:00

finally the end of exams... staying in hall is a fun experience... i think its the company tat makes the experience a fun one... or i would say a crazy one... crazy to the extend where i need to get out of the room to study... LOL... didnt had much of a celebration after the exams... no mood... cos the last paper sucks to the max, plus engine on for the straight 5 days.... super shag already... had a supper wif dear after jap class... took NR5 home after the supper... it was the first time i feel so sleepy... can jus fall asleep anytime... super scary... was so afraid tat i might miss my stop... cant wait to alight so tat i wont sleep... haha...

had a gathering at nazia house on sat... a post hari raya haji celebration... yeah.... good food again!!!! yummy yum yum!!! nazia's mum is such a good cook!!! cant resist the temptation and went for a second round... hehe... awww.... i miss those good old times when we jus sit tgt and chat... haha... and we cam whore again as usual... u guys can go take a look at the pics in my fb... haha... yeah... and the topic of the day was getting ourself off the shelves... haha... super funny... mayling's dad was so desperate to the extend tat he said tat he dun mind china man!!! haha... i dun mean to be racist or nationalist... jus... u noe... haha... we prefer local... haha... yup... and then the stupid nazia went to tell her indian frends tat i am interested in indian guys... oh well... all thanks to nazia... so dun blame mi if i really go for indian guys... haha... bleah!!!

then was slacking at home be4 the start of fyp... haiz... saded... fyp is so boring... and i might not be able to finish it be4 the first draft of report!!!! argh... dun tok abt it... saded...

oh... recently... very into playing guitar... haha... cos of the influence of joseph and iris n gang... haha... iris n gang went to learn guitar!!!! so cool!!!! i wanted to learn guitar too!!! haha... but need to invest in one guitar first... haha... but i got one lobang... somebody going to buy an acoustic guitar liao... then i can go cope his 2nd hand guitar... hehe... whoohoo!!!! haha... cool... and i have already though of wat song to learn... i wanna learn Collide and More than words!!! haha... super nice~ hopefully i can learn it soon... haiz... but wif the packed schedule of mine... i think abit diff lah... haiz... saded...

this little boy is super pro!!! my idol!!! hope i can play like him... haha...

nice nice... hehe.... u and i collide~ :)

and i learn a new word... scoomb... means anything u wan to scold huiqi... all thanks to wang wang... the meaning of scoomb now includes everything... jus like booms and shings... bleah!!!

SCOOMBS~

掉了

2009-11-29T13:18:00.003+08:00

阿密特（张惠妹）- 掉了

詞/吳青峰　　
曲/吳青峰

心疼的玫瑰半夜還開著
找不到匆匆掉落的花蕊
回到現場卻已來不及
等待任何回音都不可得

微弱的風箏冬天裡飄著
回不去手中纏線的那個
沒有藍天又何必去飛
怎麼適合

黑色笑靨掉了雪白眼淚掉了
該出現的所有表情瞬間掉了
瞳孔沒有顏色結了冰的長河
回憶是最可怕的敵人

故事情節掉了主角對白掉了
該屬於劇中的對角戲也掉了
胸口沒有快樂斷了翅的白鴿
不枯萎的藉口全掉了

曾經唱過的歌分享過的笑聲
在心中不斷拉扯
想念不能承認偷偷擦去淚痕
冬天過了還是會很冷

黑色笑靨掉了雪白眼淚掉了
該出現的所有表情瞬間掉了
瞳孔沒有顏色結了冰的長河
回憶是最可怕的敵人

故事情節掉了主角對白掉了
該屬於劇中的對角戲也掉了
胸口沒有快樂斷了翅的白鴿
不枯萎的藉口全掉了

nice... got feel...

回憶是最可怕的敵人...

in the midst of exam

2009-11-28T00:01:00.003+08:00

when most of the ppl had alrdy finish their exam, i am only done wif 1 paper...

straight 5 paper nx week... SHAG!!!

cant wait for exams to end... although there is no playing after exam as well... saded...

fyp... ad-hoc job... haiz... PACKED...

went to watch 2012 straight after the first paper... personally, i think the movie is nice, although i heard lots of negative comments on the movie... well i guess diff ppl have diff views ba... some parts of the movie is quite crappy... but there are touching moments as well... haha... makes u think abt the things in life... haha... or maybe is jus tat i like to think alot... haha...

sometimes i wonder if i am doing the right thing... troubles jus comes out of my mouth... and i hate it... i guess i jus tok without thinking... and it sucks... the initial tot was jus out of courtesy? didnt expect anything stupid to happen... or irritating... argh... jus cant stand it... or maybe is jus tat i am thinking too much? and maybe i am too concern abt how ppl thinking... i dunnoe... jus hope things wont worsen... or maybe nothing happened... jus tat i think too much... haiz... i dunnoe... i dun wan to be involved in that complicated situation as well...

am i the one wif the problem? most probably... misunderstanding always arises... ppl always mistook my meaning... i guess the way i deliver the msg is misleading ba... haiz... i dunnoe... i only noe i dun mean it tat way...

is it ok to remain the same? or shld i do something abt it? i jus dun wan anything bad to happen... but sometimes when i think abt it, is it selfish of mi to impose the ending i wan on the situation? is it the best ending? can i even find a best solution to all problems?

problematic self...

The Princess and the PIG

2009-11-14T13:04:00.006+08:00

On Friday , 13th November 2009 an unusual scene was first sighted at Orchard Central. A Princess was holding on to a "flying pig", walking down orchard road. She then walked into Killiney Post Office holding the pig in her arms. People in KPO greeted her with respect, "Hi Princess!!!" She then met up with her friends to celebrate her birthday. The following photo is a picture of the princess and her pig.

wahaha... i cant believe she actually cried... haha... the surprise was pretty well planned... although there are some little miscommunication... but nvm! it turned out well... hope everyone had enjoyed the night~

here are some pics to share...

the guys, the princess and the pig~

my babies~

mi and my ah bee~ i love you!

cam whoring in the car boot wif 2 drunkens! look how red they are! haha~

haha... i had so much fun!!! although i was abit quiet... cos nv eat then drink... so yeah... haha... and thanks to the guys for their entertainment... haha... hope my ah bee love the surprise too!!! haha...

its been so long since we had such celebration... haha.... drinking, playing games and all... relax~ it feels like exams are over... BUT it haven even started... so yah... HAIZ....

hehe... a well done self introduction by zequan... i think he did a good job... no longer as SHY... haha... :P

was super tired when i reached home... this is the first time i reach home soooooo late... lucky mummy nv scold... haha... she was asleep alrdy... haiz... spend sometime to remove all the things on my face and especially the contact lens... i took some time to take it out... haiz... too long nv wear le... bleah....

need to start studying liao... study hard guys~ we can do it!!!!

but i think i wont go back to KPO anymore... THE SERVICE SUCKS!!!!

HW310 Professional Communication 2009

2009-11-11T00:11:00.005+08:00

HW310 Professional Commuincation:

Last communication module
Last project
Last Oral Presentation before Final Year Project

Leader say its a good job done... ah... sorry... Zequan say its good job done...

First time doing a proper project wif ppl other than my clique of girls... lets not include HRM and all... those no need to do OP... haha...

3 interesting guys... 1 shy, 1 introvert, 1 confident...
it is nice working wif them... i enjoyed myself... i might miss those times... haha...

msn, can A, long john silver, carls junior, sun with moon, k session... haha... so much fun...

THE MOST PROFESSIONAL TEAM :)

hopefully they had fun too... haha... and not becoming more tok cock... dun blame it on us... haha....

i would say i learn alot of stuff from them... including the lame stuff too... haha...

thanks for all the precious memories! love u guys... hehe... prof com ROCKS!!!

*more photos pls visit ah wang's blog... hehe....

糖心风暴家好月圆

2009-11-08T14:45:00.005+08:00

hehe... yeah... jus finish watching this hong kong drama... haha... tat kind of drama u watch liao keep scolding de... but u still wan to watch... haha... love this song in the drama... super got feel...

raymond lam is so cute... so much better than bosco wong!!! :P ok... jus personal opinion... hehe...

Project S

2009-11-06T13:13:00.005+08:00

whoohoo~~~ finally done wif my prof com OP!!! haha... nice working wif those bunch of crazy ppl... abit stressed though... but it was nice... haha... love the shioky we had after the OP!!! whoohoo~

yeap... as mention in the title...

PROJECT S:

SHIOKY
SLIM
STUDY
SWMMING
sleeping

haha... watever!!! need to study hard liao... but... oso must have some entertainment... haha.... thanks to joseph who intro mi to this new drama which i think is super funny... 海派甜心！

ahahaha... look at xiao zhu's new style... so lu guang zhong... haha... catch this drama if u guys are free... haha...

enjoy~ :)

the baseballs

2009-11-04T00:34:00.003+08:00

recently, somebody complain tat i post an emo entry wif an emo mtv... so for a change, i found a cute mtv... retro... country... haha

i think they are good... haha... the baseballs... i like this country version of umbrella... haha

nice!!!! not so hot and sexy.... more groove... haha...

elvis style... love it!

坏人

2009-10-31T22:50:00.001+08:00

你是坏人还是好人？
我是坏人还是好人？
他是坏人还是好人？

eye bags

2009-10-20T18:13:00.002+08:00

haven been sleeping enuff for this semester... especially in the recent weeks... sleeping at 4, 5 am... sucks... everything is piling up... projects, lectures... haiz... i wonder if i can pull through... stressed... yr 4 is really a busy year... CAs and presentation all coming up... nv did a presentation so seriously like this one now... haiz...

everyday a new experience...

a smile explains eveything... :)

i jus wanna complain... :p

Recess Week!!!

2009-10-04T15:54:00.004+08:00

SO SAD!!! today is the last day of recess week... haiz... haven had enuff fun and its ending so so so soon... and the worst thing is nx week there are 2 CAs!!! hmph... so i spend a few days of my recess week jus to study for the stupid test... argh... waste my time... lucky i had some fun at the start of the recess week...

yes... and its the chalet organised by my 亲爱的 clique... haha... its was nice and fun... got to noe new ppl there... haha... and the good food!!!! *drooling* yummy... my 亲爱的, sam, kaiyee, all can be good housewife oh! haha... we peel the sotong skin, cut them up and slice some pattern on it... stingray, prawns... then the "production line" wrapping up the food in Al foils... high efficiency i would say *proud*... then the start of BBQ!!! and guess wat we are doing? watch tv... all becos of waiyee... she wan to watch her malaysia drama... haha... my first episode there... followed by the 抢摊 show... so we went to BBQ @ 9... haha... then everybody starting to say " wah... they finally left the sofa!" haha... so super paiseh... yup... so we did some BBQ... but most of them are full alrdy... haha... so we jus played wif the food and crap ard... haha... some scandals and all... super funny... after tat we started to play some games... first game is heart attack! well imagine 13 ppl playing heart attack... u REALLY need to STRETCH!!! haha... then the advance level... everybody was super high... so who did the forfeit? yes... out of expectation is me... *ops*... yes... and the forfeit is jus stand up cos nobody can think of any forfeit... haha!!! lucky mi... haha... nx up is my fav pictionary!!! haha... yup yup... i think i played the game too many times... cos my grp was really strong... haha!!! super thick skin though... so i became the judge while kaiyee take over mi... haha... poor ronnie and wang's grp is so far behind... haha... catching up is waiyee's grp... changloo was good tat guessing tats y... haha... at the end everybody was so tired tat they jus cant wait for the game to end... haha... shld have taken some pics of the pics they had drawn... super funny... then is indian poker... yup... drinking game... of cos we didnt drink much cos we play cheat... so the 2 who got drunk are ronnie and zhi chang... haha... poor chaps... haha.... then is the scandalous game TWISTER! took lots of scandalous pic... go fb to update on the scandal... haha...

intended to go home on the 2nd nite... but cos there are only left 5 of them staying... so we decided to stay wif them... so the activities for 2nd day was bowling then dinner then night cycling... haha... my first night cycling was fun... nice experience... haha... but i think i shld go brush up on my cycling skills so tat i can cycle on my own... haha... i think i shld have burnt some calories tat nite... good... haha...

wed went home to rest... thurs morning went photo taking for EnS... went krangi war memorial and singapore badminton hall... krangi war memorial is really a nice place... i like the quietness there... so peaceful... but i dunnoe if it is really nice to watch sun set there... haha...

fri onwards is studying... yup... boring... so i found the mtv for my fav songs... finally get to see how they look like... haha...

yup... his hair is abit funny... but i still like them... love their another song called Wait For Me... super nice too!!!

next up...

nice nice...

anyway i jus cut my fringe... i look koo koo... :(

nitghmare

2009-09-26T16:15:00.003+08:00

haiz... recently i had a terrible nightmare... some stupid nightmare of man eating zombies... it was soooooo stupid... i even have self censorship... i opened my eyes at the point when he was abt to eat... cool huh... haha... then i the nx day something stupid happen again... when i was in lab filtering my anti cancer drug carrier, i applied too high a pressure and the whole thing burst, splashing onto my face and my mentor's.... the drug is super toxic... we quickly wash wif water... but who noes if i have swollow any... haiz... hopefully everything is fine....

is finally the recess week!!!! the whole week is mostly packed wif fun and excitement... none abt skool work... haiz... after recess week there are 2 CAs... so i guess i have to plan some time studying...

hmmm... recently i am super broke... really broke... so i have come up wif a solution... tat is to be come 瘦肉!!! haha... from 肥猪肉 to 瘦肉!!! cos i have been eating too much, spending all my money on food!!! tats why, need to cut down on food and oso cut down on weight!!! yup!!!瘦肉here i come!!!!

The Blower's Daughter

2009-09-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

was watching xing guang recently... fell in love wif his cute guy... love him lots... he jus have the power to make u listen to wat he is singing... love him... :)

nx... this song from fish leong... which i think is nice too...

i am so tired...

happy 22nd birthday

2009-08-27T23:57:00.007+08:00

happy 22nd birthday to myself~ here are the present tat i have received...

zara leggings and scarf from my dearies... haha...

and DKNY perfurme from da gu~

haha... thank you so much for all the gifts... i love it... :)

我的依賴

2009-08-16T02:15:00.002+08:00

chance upon this mv when i was watching some vid on youtube... nice and sweet song... reminds mi of something... haha...

我们从牵手放手又牵手走过来
我们从期待失落又期待走过来
我们从日出日落又日出走过来

indeed a long way to go for couples to go into the church to make their vows... making life long promises to each other... saying " i do"...

lots of lesson learnt from quarrels, separation, cold wars... got to noe urself better, and oso the other party better... how to find a better solution to problems... how to communicate better...

its not easy to be tgt... not even to say to stay tgt... happy to see the couples ard mi doing good... though its jus the start (still under probation) haha... will "observe" to see if everything will turn out well... u noe i am too logical and sensitive (large radar)... so if i see any problem i will surely inform u guys... of cos i will hope tat u guys will be like the couple in the mv... getting married in a lovely church... haha... i think it will be sweet... haha... jus take things slowly... all the best... :)

had a long chat ytd... lots of memories jus come back into the mind... then the question "y not?" and i said something mean... haha... i kinda feel bad abt it... actually when i think back abt it... it wasnt all abt tat... tat wasnt the main reason... maybe it wasnt even the reason too... the reason is simple? and i guess i made it complicated... and then the "if u can turn back time" question... actually i nv tot of tat question be4... i replied no immediately... logically perfect ans with supporting evidence... but when i had the time to slowly think abt this question, i was thinking y didnt i think of this question be4? is it becos i didnt wanted to regret abt my decision, didnt wan to make a decision again? or maybe i didnt regretted wif my decision... cos this kind of question is like for ppl who regretted their decision... haha... i dunnoe... i guess i think too logically again... then i tot of if i didnt make the same decision, wat would it be like? i cant imagine how would it be like... i guess it doesnt matter now... haha... bad bad habit... think too logically too much... haha...

kick the bad habit...

Last Lap

2009-08-13T01:00:00.001+08:00

Year 4 semester 1.... finally reach this stage of life... being a freshie was jus like ytd... time flies... still adjusting back to the skool kind of life... really hated waking up so early almost everyday... rushing from NTU to NUS then back to NTU really sucked... ah bee says its jus like double dating... but i think its worst than tat... at least u love both when u r double dating... argh...

really really need to work hard now...

my 22nd bdae is arriving soon... nv expect it to come so soon... wasnt even ready to make any wishes and i had to blow the candles... wat shld i even wish for??? nv really take my birthday wishes so seriously for the past 21 yrs... i guess i am really old... haiz...

love the sand art...

exhausted

2009-07-17T23:27:00.003+08:00

came back from bangkok and camp... super tired... the most tiring camp ever...

i really need a long rest...

unpack and pack some stuff...

getting ready for the nx challenges in life...

A small mini break

2009-07-07T23:35:00.007+08:00

haha... going to have a small mini break from this hectic life of mine... haha...

BANGKOK HERE I COME!!!! SHOPPING~~~

miss mi not... i will be back soon... :)

"You Can't Have Me"

2009-06-28T15:12:00.003+08:00

jus finished watching harper's island epi 11... was really heartbroken by the deaths in the show... dun read wat i am going to write if u haven watch it ah wang... haha...

shane was a real bastard in the show... but in the end he still protected the ladies and fought bravely against john wakefield (BASTARD!!!)... salute to shane! he is a gentleman after all... :)

the most heartbreaking scene in the show... my cute british Cal was killed by the brutal JW... JW is a big asshole... argh... limited vocab makes it diificult to express what i am really feeling now... @$#^%$#@$#^&%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! was really very touched when Cal went all out to save Chloe... he was injuired but nothing is more impt than saving Chloe... he really loved Chloe so much tat even Sully can feel it... how i wish there is a really Cal in this world...

witnessing ur loved one being killed right in front of u, wat will u do? you can't have me.... tats wat Chloe said to JW... then she jumped down the bridge, being wif Cal forever... haiz... i might to the same thing if i found somebody like Cal... :( oh my god... i cant believe the writers of the script actually ended both of their stories like tat... i hate it... its so sad... its beautiful... but its tooooooooooooooo sad... sorry... limited vocab again... argh... totally affected my mood... I'M SO SAD~

the song tat was played in the show during the scene was perfect... slowly build up the emotions... love it... totally fits the story of Cal and Chloe... song by Civil Twilight, Letters From the Sky...

i noe its silly... have been thinking for a couple of days who might be the killer... been reading lots of comments... lots of suspects... there are ppl who suspect trish and shea as the killer... there is a possibility... but still... not on the top of my list... i still suspect henry and jimmy... sully was quite suspicious in epi 11... but i cant be sure abt it... the end of epi 11 makes it so obvious tat there is some secret abt jimmy... but the writers seems to make it too obvious... my theory is tat henry might be JW's child... so he and abby are half bro and sis... tat can explain why he is so protective over abby and why he stopped abby from killing JW at the candlewick... abt jimmy... i'm sure there is something abt him and JW... else why would JW spare his life? or is he JW's child? his confession in epi12 &13... i cant wait to noe the truth!!! oh man... i really love the story until now... better dun spoil the ending!!! need to wait for another 2 weeks to noe the truth behind all the killings!!!!

dying to noe the truth...

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tribute to the king of pop Michael Jackson...
cant post the vid here... go watch his Thriller mtv... i love the mtv... :)

心墙

2009-06-23T23:18:00.006+08:00

心墙 - 郭静

一个人　眺望碧海和蓝天
在心里面　那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞跃
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝　因为有限
　　　　
我学着不去担心得太远
不计划太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐的看每一天

第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别
　　　　　
你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
　　　　
我学着不去担心得太远
不计划太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐的看每一天

第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别
　　　　
你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
　　　　　
你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

one of the songs tat i have been listening to recently... nice... haha...

working in mango nv fails to make mi so tired... and i got myself a swollen when i was on my way to work... good job huh... its damn pain... cant even go home on my own... have to trouble yuexiang's bro to drive us home... haiz... jus super tired... finally got myself 3 off days to rest at home.... dun wanna go out at all...

subject registration sucks... ntu ppl are all so kiasu... including mi... haha... vacancies gone in secs... they all can join the fastest finger first... haha...

haiz... how i wish things could be settled wif the sentence " i dunnoe"... i really dunnoe if i shld jus say it and make things clearer or shld i jus leave it... everything has changed... and it seems like its too late to do anything... doesnt mean tat i am regretting or anything... jus not used to it...

感觉好陌生。。。

自私的我，好想回到过去。
但永远停留在过去只会更伤心。
只有勇敢的放下过去，
才能从新面对未来。

但是。。。

the run

2009-06-16T13:45:00.003+08:00

my first idol drama...

last scene of it was to rush to the airport before my beloved yinyin san enter the departure gate....

ran like hell from isetan to orchard mrt...

waited 5 min for the train... 2225...

2240, tanah merah mrt... stupid train to changi refuse to move...

2245, ran from changi mrt to row 6 gst refund...

finally get to see my yinyin san...

goodbye my love... see ya in 1 month time...

勉强是会幸福的！:P

i so gonna miss u~

UNFAIR

2009-06-09T00:23:00.001+08:00

Life is so UNFAIR...

Lead a Happy Life

2009-06-06T15:44:00.009+08:00

went to celebrate the end of IA wif my intern mates ytd nite... we plan to go chill at this pub owned by one of my intern mates... so we went there, looking forward to a cool pub... but to our surprise, it wasnt wat we tot it would be like... it was a pretty cool place... a place for SENIOR CITIZENS... haha... a pretty cool experience... u can see our grandpa and grandma dancing cha-cha on the dance floor... wif some giggolo wif the tai tai grannies of cos... haha... wif the songs tat i have nv hear be4... but it was ok after 12... cos most of the grannies are going home... u noe... old ppl cant really stay up late... haha... there was this super cool auntie singing Pink, Lady GaGa, Katy Perry's songs on the stage... super cool man... love her... haha... was haveing abit of fun when she is singing on stage... hehe... hmmm... quite enjoyable actually... something new... definately will go back there when i am abit older... haha...

received this email from my co-sup... which i would like to share wif u guys...

2009新概念

两个基本点：遇事潇洒一点，看世糊涂一点。

三个忘记：

忘记年龄，

忘记过去，

忘记恩怨。

四个拥有：

无论你有多弱或多强，一定要

拥有真正爱你的人，

拥有知心的朋友，

拥有向上的事业，

拥有温暖的住所。

五个要：

要唱，

要跳，

要俏，

要笑，

要苗条。

六个不能：

不能饿了才吃，

不能渴了才喝，

不能困了才睡，

不能累了才歇，

不能病了才检查，

不能老了再后悔。

hmmm... i guess tats the right kind of lifestyle i should be moving towards to... WORK HARD!

the meaning of pain

2009-06-02T23:00:00.004+08:00

Pain n An unpleasant sensation occurring in varying degrees of severity as a consequence of injury, disease, or emotional disorder

忘记什么时候开始就不再喊痛，所以慢慢的也开始说不出口。。。

i guess thats the answer to my question...

Random

2009-05-31T22:25:00.003+08:00

jus some random tots...

getting used to such life now... is it good or bad?

finally coming to the end of attachment... time to have a good rest...

dun understand why my phone have to fail at this point of time...

dunnoe the reason behind the tinge of pain at the corner of the heart...

strong or trying to be strong?

dunnoe why sometimes it's jus getting hard to breathe...

been thinking thru those questions... why am i taking it so well?

maybe its jus on the surface...

deep down... it hurts... but ignored...

jus some random tots...

its summer time!

2009-05-27T23:05:00.004+08:00

woohoo... finally a break from the boring life tat i had... went sentosa to celebrate yin's bdae... pretty cool outing... i enjoyed myself to the fullest... although i had body aches all over the nx day... haha... oh well... did something vain the day be4 the sentosa trip until 5am... haha... 2 lousy girls figuring out how to use a eyeliner... haha... pls forgive us... haha...

L O V E~

we will improve in our skills... haha... dun kill mi for uploading the ugly photos... haha... :P

Stairways to Haven - Old School

2009-05-17T00:13:00.005+08:00

after so much... finally found some time to relax myself... brought myself back to a place that i really like...

Stairway to my secret haven :)

peeking at the haven using the side mirror... (ah bee's idea) cool huh... haha...

using the kid's eyeview...

simply a peaceful place jus for relax... :)

好累

2009-05-01T22:13:00.002+08:00

真的好累。。。
做事情总是力不从心。。。
这一切的一切，是否是老天爷给我的考验？

我是不会放弃的。。。

加油。。。

IA Scandal

2009-04-23T20:46:00.004+08:00

jus some scandal to share wif u guys... the scandalous couple in my company... quarrel everyday... 小俩口斗嘴... sweet...

hehe... watching la bi xiao xin tgt some more... so sweet hor? haha...

hmmm... so many things had happened... but its all over now... as long as we stay tgt, nothing can put us down... :) jia you...

Record

2009-04-16T22:18:00.004+08:00

broke 2 glassware in 1 day... wat a fantastic job i had done at work... well done... then still stupidly put my thumb into the flask trying to pull tat stupid thing out only to realise there is this small little piece of glass poke thru my glove and into my thumb... lucky my skin is thick enuff... thank god for having such thick skin huh...

haiz... its time to write report again... hate it... argh... i dunnoe wat to write man!!! and then is FYP... argh... so ma fan... so many things to do... :(

love the song... love the mv...

Dirty Little Secrets

2009-04-14T20:18:00.004+08:00

hehe... change my blogskin again~ haha... i noe i seems very free... jus wanna a change... haha... name it my dirty little secrets... inspired by the all american rejects song "dirty little secrets"... haha... oh well... i think its a cute name... haha... shall share one small secret... some thing i did when i am bored in lab... haha...

"bloated" gloves... for ur info... the face is not i draw one... my co-sup did it... haha...

mi and my creation... cool huh... haha...

anyway... here's lin zi liang song... nice... i think u hear liao u will noe this song... haha...

Boys Before Flower

2009-04-10T21:28:00.003+08:00

jus finish watching this serial... nice... love it... love the handsome actors especially!!! haha... love Gu Jun Pyo and Yoon Ji Hoo.. they are super cute... wah haha... *drools*

love this part of the show... when the female lead sing... sweet...

and this song~ love it... i think it sounded like lin zi liang's old song though... but i still love it! :)

love this drama.... :)

安全區

2009-04-01T23:23:00.003+08:00

安全區- 林倛玉

靜靜等候一陣暖流
暖和被時間冷落的巷口
想你有多濃自己也不太懂
寂寞的味覺如何形容
　
你說溫柔是一個詛咒
感動過的人終究都會走
我雖不認同假裝都諒解心就越疼痛
而藥方是能夠重逢

安全區是你的回憶
很美麗於是你走不開怕回不去

只可惜再努力也只準我留在原地
愛是等待唯一的動力

你走以後想念是魔咒
緊握你說過的話不罷手
我們都相同把愛裝進了沉默這信封
寄不出只好等重逢

安全區是你的回憶
很美麗你的心除了他誰進得去

到如今我還在這裡哪怕只是多餘
愛是等待所有的動力

“要成長就不能老呆在安全區裡 ”

Nothing is more important than health

2009-03-30T20:31:00.004+08:00

have been doing much thinking lately... nv seems to realise how vulnerable life could be... and how impt it is to mi... it is jus something u can nv buy using money... all those problems that we faced everyday seems so small compared to wat i have faced recently... haiz... its a terrible period of time to pull thru... is time to be independent... making impt decisions all by urself...

i noe i can pull thru it...

You Found Me

2009-03-21T22:46:00.003+08:00

nice song... love his singing...
when ppl feel lost and insecure... they tend to turn to god...
jus a sense of security tat ppl really need... sometimes a phone call is enuff...

nv doubt ur existance... cos u nv noe how impt u r to other ppl... jus like how impt u guys are to mi... even when we dun contact each other much, u are still impt to mi... and hopefully i am too to u... :)

sometimes when u think that u will be ok if somebody jus walks away from u... its nv true... cos u nv realise that u have actually sink in so deep inside the relationship... stop lying to urself and tell others that u will be ok and u have been thru worse... things like this cant really be compared... hopefully everything will turn out smooth and good...

think abt wat u really wan... do wat u think is right...

wedding

2009-03-16T20:52:00.004+08:00

have been real busy at work... although every week the same thing... always tired after work and bed is the only place where i long to be... haha... life is quite interesting... attended my cousin's wedding tat day... most entertaining wedding i ever attended... bridegroom singing during the dinner... waiters dancing when serving the cold dish... cool and interesting... haha... unforgetable... and my cousin is super pretty... haha... here's a pic of mi and her...

congratulations! best wishes~ :)

this sunday is another wedding dinner... my mum's frend's daughter... which is my tutee... yes... my tutee is getting married... hmmm... i wonder how it will be like... will update u guys... take care... :)

Love Story - #100 entry

2009-02-23T20:01:00.007+08:00

saw this MTV recently... i think its super romantic... love the song too... and i found something interesting when i was looking for this video... i think the song and the movie fits... love it... jus finish wif the 1st book... moving on the the 2nd... haha...

Love Story- Taylor Swift

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashbacks start
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know
That you were Romeo
You were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go
And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, escape this town for a little while
Oh, oh, oh
'Cause you were Romeo,
I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go
And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
Romeo, save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's *re-al*
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
Oh Ohhh
I got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said
Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said
Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say yes
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Cuz We were both young when I first saw you

haha... taylor swift is so pretty in the video!!! love her dress... super nice... the videos are so sweet... wat a romantic love story... i noe i was slow... but i am really in love wif the story... they dun hide their love for each other and they jus tell each other tat they love each other so much... although it seems impossible for them to be tgt forever unless bella becomes a vampire (although she did in the end), they still didnt give up... i would have love the story more if bella didnt turn into a vampire... haha... :P

oh well... previous entry was so emo... and i tot i will be so emo for quite sometime... but i'm glad i wasnt... haha... all thanks to my dear and my super sweet and pretty co sup... i think i jus cant be wat i wan to be in the previous entry... haha... 犯贱... cant help it... its my karma i guess... :P it doesnt matter if anybody appreciates it... as long as i noe wat i am doing is right...

oh watever.... i dun care~

enough

2009-02-22T21:41:00.003+08:00

i had enough

enough of doing all the rubbish
enough of keeping everything together
enough of all the f***ing attitude
enough of putting in all the effort but no returns
enough of taking initiative
enough of making decision
enough of ppl taking things for granted
enough of you
enough of me

sometimes i jus hate myself... trying so hard to pls everybody... but in the end getting myself hurt... i hate myself for thinking for the others first be4 myself... i hate myself for being so not truthful to myself... i hate myself for willing to suffer in misery so things wont turn ugly... i hate myself being a coward... not able to say wat i really feel... i hate myself being a perfectionist... wanting everything to have a happy ending...

i jus hate...

maybe some ppl will think tat i am trying to make myself sound nice and all... its ok if u dun feel tat i am doing all these... cos i will stop doing all these to u since u dun appreciate it...

now i noe why i cant go back to the old self... cos as ppl grow older, they tend to think more... maybe u can say it say growing more mature... u need to consider a lot of things... unlike when u r young, u jus say wat u feel, dun need to consider if the other party is hurt or not... u jus have the courage to say everything out... but as u grow older, things become more complicated... or we make things more complicated... tats why there are things that u can do and things tat u cant do... i'm so tired of such life...

我受够了。。。

project runaway

2009-02-16T23:19:00.003+08:00

haiz... i really wanna run away from this boring life of mine man... and tat reminds mi of our IA trip to taiwan... although tats not the only thing tat reminds mi abt it... but the thing is MONEY... our pay is like peanuts and its not cheap to go taiwan... and planning is the worst part... hate to do all the planning... how i wish i can jus wait for ppl to tell mi how much is the trip and all... argh... so i shall push everything to wang to do... hehe... thanks dear! haha... but i still helped out... at least not having to plan everything on my own... need to find cheap and good hotels, cheap flights., dates where everybody can make it... haiz... its really tough u noe...

found some cheap and good hotels and cheap flights.... nx is meeting up and confirmation... haiz... so many things to do for IA already... now still must plan... tired tired tired... so so so many things to do...

and my peanuts pay... need to spend as little as possible... so allowances for the rest of feb is $3 per day... cool... treat it as my slimming project then...

do i look like a dictator? i am not... so dun treat mi like one... stop asking mi...

不是我不明白

2009-02-09T22:36:00.006+08:00

不是我不明白-梁静茹

不是我不明白这样并不算太坏
懂得爱说来无奈
来自对你亏待没刻意掩埋
没对他坦白你还在

会进来吗你在送我回家我还在猜测
可都是真的了
再见面前一直想像还有某种关联
但客气是拒绝
新的朋友不在重叠
你的世界我在边缘

不是我不明白这样并不算太坏
能再次关怀时间洗刷所有的不愉快
后来的爱我们尝试去宽待
懂得爱说来无奈来自对你亏待
没刻意掩埋没对他坦白你还在

没说分手终于是能开玩笑的朋友
不是不难过的
多少年了我想过能够和你一起老的
却都有别人了
新的朋友不再重叠
我的世界你在邊缘

不是我不明白有些话我没说出来
能再次关怀时间洗刷所有的不愉快
后来的爱我们尝试去宽待
懂得爱说来无奈来自对你亏待
没刻意掩埋 (没有)
没对他坦白 (你还在)

不是我不明白
说悲哀并不应该
我们的关怀像爱但又说不上爱

没有后来我们才学会爱
但现在说来感慨不是那个未来
我们说好的
说好的不会更改的
你会在

quite an old song that i recently heard... haha... i love it...
ppl usually learn from their own mistakes... they will try to do better the nx time... jus like in a relationship, we always learn alot from the previous relationship and try to be better the nx time... 懂得爱说来无奈来自对你亏待

those were the good old times... looking thru the photos we took, there will sure be a few that u jus cant help but smile when looking at them... photos can really bring u back to those happy times... the sad thing is we cant go back to the good old times... we can only create more good old times... haha...

used to be so close... now so far away... guess thats the only way to do... hope everything is fine... :)

爱有千百万种定义

2009-02-08T00:17:00.001+08:00

爱有千百万种定义

i agree... :)

Chinese New Year and Sentosa Flower 2009

2009-02-01T21:50:00.004+08:00

this year's chinese new year is abit less fun than previous years cos this year we nv go my uncle's office to bai nian then lesser ang bao lor... haha... kidding lah... tats not the main point... the main point is i only enjoy 2 days of new year!!! last year still can pon skool and all... but this year cannot pon work!!!! :( sad lor... everyday work work work... so sian lor... but nvm... haha... took some pics on the second day of new year..

haha... brought my mum and aunt to the Sentosa Flower 2009... wasnt as fantastic as last year... so my mummy was nagging for the whole trip... as usual... haiz...

yup... for more pics of the sentosa flower can go facebook see... mi now uploading them already... haha... take care peeps... :)

甜蜜蜜

2009-01-21T22:05:00.002+08:00

super cute song... haha... little things a special person do jus makes u so happy, jus like floating... haha....

忘記Mr. Right 愛Mr. Wrong一次... :)

Breast Cancer cells

2009-01-19T22:11:00.005+08:00

first week of attachment was so free and easy... surfing the net and going for tea breaks... enjoying life... but it is getting more and more busy as the days passed by... everyday was a tiring day... even when u do nothing and jus play com... jus so restless... haiz...

anyway... here's an update abt wat i am doing in IMRE... was doing this project tgt wif waituck and its abt porous hollow silica used in drug delivery... waituck was suppose to do on the synthesis part of the hollow silica while i will do on the analysis part of the hollow silica... so i am suppose to learn how to do cell culture and all the bio stuff... got to learn from basic... haiz... anyway... so i am culturing those cancer cells like breast cancer cells, brain tumor cells and cervical cancer cells... they have got their scientific names but i tot tat it might be too diff for my frends to rmb, so i jus told them breast cancer cell and all... so this day, my co sup told mi tat the breats cancer cell we cultured have been contaminated wif bacteria and all so the cells died and we have to culture the cells again... so i told wang that the breast cancer and brain tumor cells had died... and my dearest wang went to tell the rest of the guys "huiqi 的 breast cancer cells 死掉了..." they tot i got breast cancer... CHOY!!!!!!!!! all thanks to wang... haha... she can only rmb BREAST cancer cells... tats why... tsk tsk... haha... okok... so to prevent such joke from happening again, the scientific name for breast cancer cell is MCF-7, brain tumor cell is U-87, and cervical cancer cell is HeLa cells...

haha... yup yup... jus some jokes to share in the midst of IA... haha...

there is so much to catch up now... my log book and all... take care peeps... :)

new year new skin

2009-01-14T00:03:00.004+08:00

finally change my blogskin... haha... took a long time to look for one tat i think is ok... haha... hope u guys think its ok too... some info haven fill in cos its late now... and i am sleepy... haha... promise to think of a new year resolution... i tot of one...

我希望我的生活会比去年的更多织多彩，更有意义，更开心，更快乐。。。

let go the past, dun let it haunt u...

HAPPY 2009!!!

2009-01-05T00:56:00.003+08:00

woohoo~ very long nv update le... haha... HAPPY NEW YEAR to all!!! haha... hope this new year will be a smooth one ahead and may all our wishes come true!!! most imptly is good health to everybody!!!

woo... new year liao... must have some new yr resolution lor... but i cant think of any rite now... will slowly think abt it... haha...

oh... tml IA start lor... hope everything will be fine... hmmm...

oh... bro sick le... still vomit... haiz... hope he will be fine after he see doc tml... get well soon...

go sleep lor... must be prepared for IA~ take care peeps...

Merry Christmas

2008-12-27T00:26:00.004+08:00

HOHOHO!!! merry christmas!!! haha... was so obsessed wif this small little christmas hat and took some photo wif it... hehe...

look at tat 2 'horns"... haha... arent they cute...

ohhh... nice pose... :)

lastly... lets have some surprise...
my mummy wif the cute hat... haha~

my mum is so gonna kill mi if she sees this!!!! xp

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

lips of an angel

2008-12-18T22:57:00.003+08:00

Lips of an Angel- Hinder

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late?

its a nice song... love it... although i dunnoe if i like the story of the song... toking abt a guy still missing his ex girlfriend... haiz... love is so complicated... but i still like this song... haha...

christmas is coming~
santa clause is coming to town~
HOHOHO~

after exam...

2008-12-01T01:07:00.005+08:00

finally its the end of exams... free from all the stress and sleepless nites... went to celebrate after exams... kuishinbo, kbox, shopping, tau huey... haha... really enjoyed myself... first time sing in kbox... sing until sore throat... sing until damn disgusting... haha... i guess i am jus too stressed this sem... so many things had happened... haiz...

went kangmin's bdae party on sat... then mi wang and pam when clarke quey to chill... sitting at the riverside drinking green tea... cool huh... haha... but its nice... i like the feel... haha... cool breeze jus clears ur mind...

have been doing lots of things before i get busy again... cut hair, facial... haiz... now my hair and face damn chui... haiz... wrong move... watever... so many things to be done... haiz... so tired...

真傻。。。心静自然清，一切都变得好清楚。。。头脑非常清楚，心却还想保留一点希望。。。真的是太傻了。。。时间是最好的良药。。。时间会冲淡一切吧。。。：）

mugging

2008-11-24T13:35:00.003+08:00

exams... mugging...

Ah Yuan's 21st Brhtday Party

2008-11-11T19:16:00.004+08:00

woohoo~ haha... our miss wangwang has celebrated her 21st birthday party on sunday 9th november 2008!!! haha... last to turn 21st... haha... and it will be waiyee's 22nd birthday soon... haha... poor waiyee... haha... cool party... we all dressed up... haha... the "Spring" theme... and only we dressed up... the rest in t-shirt and shorts... haha... super give face liao lor... wang u owe us one... haha... the whole party was fun... self entertaining and cam whoring... haha... and of cos waiyee's lameness... haha... best part was dumping wang into the pool... haha... the whole climax of the party... haha... took lots of pic... go facebook see ba... haha... here some nice one... haha...

Say Cheese~

aww... isnt she cute wif the butterfly aka ribbon on her head? haha...

haha... yes... we always take pic like tat... i look at mine and huiyu look at hers... haha... :P

kinky photo of mi and my dear... hehe...

yummy... arent the cup cakes sweet and cute? haha... it is really SWEET... haha...

last party be4 exams starts... had enjoyed myself of cos... haha... got to study hard for exams liao... jia you peeps!!! celebration after exams!!! sentosa and cafe del mar's big bed wait for us~ haha... take care... v( ^-^)v

S.H.E - 612星球

2008-11-08T21:07:00.003+08:00

S.H.E - 612星球

满园玫瑰我以为找到我那一朵
认真爱了却狠狠刺伤我的双手
责备什麼人也没有用
玫瑰都红难免看错
望著天空爱是否活在童话裏头
小王子说有些事流浪过才会懂
原来每颗心都有个洞
找不到真爱会一直寂寞 Oh--
我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍著痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦
一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱著我的所有
相遇前我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我
擦乾眼泪一个人漂流在这宇宙
小王子说爱一定开在某个角落
路上相爱的人那麼多

我会幸福吗在什麼时候 Oh—

nice song... 我但愿有一个人在等我, 好让我忍著痛也愿意往下走... 一定会有一个人在等我, 无条件拥抱著我的所有... :)

忠实听众

2008-11-02T23:22:00.004+08:00

有好多话想说，但一切已不一样了。。。

birthday party

2008-11-01T23:41:00.003+08:00

oh... so many birthday parties coming up... ytd was adeline's... haha... it was ok... not that bad... saw thomas and zhanyu... haha... its been long since i last see him... still as crappy as ever... its good to see everybody doing wat they like...

today is nazia's party... a surprise party... she was pretty upset that nobody celebrated her bdae ytd... but everything is planned to surprise her today... haha... so cool rite? haha... everybody hid in her house jus to wait for her grand arrival and give her the surprise... haha... oh well... HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAZIA!!!! i love u so much... haha...

haiz... now i am left wif assignment, CA and exams... i am so bored... dun feel like studying and doing assignment... haiz... jus dun feel like doing anything... jus wanna play and all... nx up is wang's bdae... haha... i bet it will be fun... the last party be4 exams... then party again after exam!!! haha... somehow i dun wanna christmas to come so soon this yr... it would mean that xiang xiang is going US soon... i will be so so so sad... i wonder how my life will be without her... without this 忠实听众 of mine... i am so gonna miss her... all my 忠实听众 is leaving... empty...

blank

2008-10-25T01:29:00.003+08:00

cant really think of a title for this entry... haha... been slacking for many days... haven really started revising for CA and exams... so so so far behind time... haiz... listening to jay chou's new song 说好的幸福呢 now... really love this song alot... haha.. wang intro de... nice nice...

喜欢是什么样的感觉？那是喜欢还是有所期待？是伤心还是失望？失望又代表了什么？是有所期待所以才失望吗？

真是有趣的问题。。。值得花一点时间想一想。。。但是还有很多事还没做。。。做正经事先吧。。。:)

the end

2008-10-22T22:59:00.005+08:00

finally its the end of my misery... these are the ppl who suffered wif mi... i think we fought the battle well and hope everything goes well... Hip Hip Hurray!!! haha... :) (i look fat in the pic... haiz... i think its time to exercise...)

oh well... i concussed when i reach home after the celebration... haven really had a good sleep since the start of the project... had a nice sleep ytd... but i am still sleepy... haha... so tired...

the end of the project... the start of preparation for exams... never ending stuff to do... its a good way to keep u from thinking of things that are not on ur top priority now...

Last Thing on My Mind...

另外一首猜不透

2008-10-19T00:11:00.003+08:00

张韶涵-猜不透

满天的星星在闪烁
点不亮心中的暖和
为什么你不懂我的梦
只是勉强笑了
就像我们凭直觉走
找不到同一个出口
从现在到心痛要多久
还有没有以后
有时
假装沉默是否有点难受
到底期待像什么
一眨眼又让心伤透
关于你们手牵手
还是关于你和我
你说你就是在我左右
下一秒却又让我
猜不透

found another song wif similar title by angela... nice song... there are so many things on earth that u can nv understand... especially what a person is thinking...

永远猜不透。。。所以不想猜下去了。。。

top on hate list

2008-10-16T23:13:00.003+08:00

haiz... i think i am top on somebody's hate list... 被人讨厌的滋味真不好受... i didnt noe i am so irritating... i dun hate him actually... jus those things he says hurts so much... so direct... so hurtful... maybe i am like tat to him too... is jus tat i do not realise it... i dunnoe... he is a hard nut to crack... some how i dun feel like doing anything to improve the situation... i think i should jus leave it... he only can feel his own pain but not the others... and i am going to lose a frend again... this feeling sucks... i really dunnoe wat to do... should i jus avoid or escape so that i dun need to face him, or should i jus ignore his presence and dun tok to him? i guess he wont tok to mi as well... haiz... so many unhappy things happened... and i really dunnoe how to handle them... but i really need to learn to handle them myself... cant always rely on other ppl to help mi...

wat shld i do? jus dun care? since it isnt the first time anyway... but i feel something is wrong... i hate that feeling... so near yet so far... i really wish to noe wat is going on... but i dun have the courage to... noeing more is not good... cos i noe i will only get hurt... since its not the first time, i think i will be able to pull thru without asking so much... cos i think i roughly noe the answer... substitution... entertainment... something to kill time... so useless...

Love You Anyway

2008-10-13T20:46:00.003+08:00

wahaha... my boyzone... old liao wor... haha... MEANING I AM OLD TOO!!!! they used to be so handsome and charming boys... now handsome and charming uncle liao... haha... look at their new mtv... they EVEN DANCED!!! haha... the way they dance is so super funny... i guess uncle old liao... tats why cannot dance those too tiring one... haha... this song is nice... happy to see them back... haha... love them... Love You Anyway, Boyzone!!!!

猜不透

2008-10-12T21:11:00.003+08:00

叮当-猜不透

猜不透你最近时好时坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心上了锁
猜不透相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸是真的是热的
如果忽远忽近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果忽冷忽热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
猜不透相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸是真的是热的
如果忽远忽近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果忽冷忽热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过
到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追究
越是在乎的人越是猜不透

他究竟在想什么，我想我永远都猜不透。。。

hectic life

2008-10-11T00:54:00.003+08:00

1. project report (which is suppose to due on 10 oct but becos of tat old sheep we need to make changes) due on monday 13 oct
2. project presentation-dry run on friday 17 oct and actual presentation tuesday 21st oct
3. MS3003 assigment due nov
4. EXAMS!!!

haiz... recently there are so many things to be done and so many things that are disappointing and not encouraging... they keep hitting on my determination and faith... i wonder when will i start to lose them bit by bit...

now i'm facing a road block... how am i suppose to overcome it? or shld i jus leave it?

disappointment

2008-10-07T21:20:00.003+08:00

greed is such a scary thing
the more u expect
the higher the disappointment u get
u tot its in ur hands
but wat u r holding on is jus air
u tot holding it tighter will keep it wif u forever
but u wont be able to hold on to other more valuable stuff
so why not jus let it go
and hold on to many other treasures that are ard u?

everything is done
there is no longer the need to stay
obvious as it seems
there is no point in staying
nv do it again...

幸福

2008-10-02T22:57:00.003+08:00

爱人是幸福的，还是被爱是幸福的？
不管是爱人或被爱，
我觉得爱在对的时间，对的人是幸福的。
但是爱在不对的时间，不对的人是不幸福的。
所以爱人是幸福的，还是被爱是幸福的？
时间和人才能判断。。。

this is something that i dunnoe how to handle... u can always help ppl to come up wif many ideas to solve the problem... but u can nv come out wif an idea to solve ur own problem... jus like a doc who cannot operate on himself and a hairdresser who cannot cut her own hair... lying is definitely not my way of doing things... becos i hate liar... but there are times when there is no choice but to lie... i wish that i'm jus thinking too much and misunderstood the meaning... i jus hope everything will be fine eventually and i do not need to resort to the last move... but it will nv be the same again i guess...

something is wrong...

2008-09-29T22:02:00.004+08:00

the heart is starting to feel pain,
and tears starting to fill the eyes.
something that was long forgotten,
that was tot to have lost,
have always been there.
the accumulation of all the pain,
all the tears that are held back,
have reached its maximum.
they are falling sick
because they have suffered too much.
its a sensitive period of time now,
and time is needed to recover from the breakdown.
hope everything will be fine during this period of time,
before they are ready to suffer in silence again...

当你离开的时候

2008-09-28T21:18:00.005+08:00

蔡健雅-当你离开的时候

只能低著头发呆
让回忆渗透脑袋
渐渐变空白
把他当作个意外
但内心还想不开
因为我明白
其实你都还在
我想起了遇见你的时候
想起你眼神中的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼
想起当时你怀里的颤抖
似乎那么害怕失去我
然而到后来我什么都没有
当你离开的时候
哦~~ ~~ ~~
我可以装作已释怀
他对我也算关怀
他看不出来
恩~~ ~~ ~~
我知道这样不应该
在他身上找依赖
算不算是种出卖
因为你一直在
我想起了遇见你的时候
想起你眼神中的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼
想起当时你怀里的颤抖
似乎那么害怕失去我
然而到后来我什么都没有
当你离开的时候
HA~~哦~~
我想起你亲吻我的时候
想起你眼神中的沉默
我想起了我们平静的分手
我闭上眼
想起当时你美丽的承诺
把你整个心都交给我
然而到后来我什么都没有
越是没有你
越是心痛
我想起了遇见你的时候
想起你眼神中的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼
想起当时你怀里的颤抖
似乎那么害怕失去我
然而到后来我什么都没有
当你离开的时候

给今早的两个人：
每一段刻苦民心的爱情，总是让人那么无法忘怀。
在回忆起从前的一切时，或许与如果的想法不时浮现，但这一切都已成定局。
试着把这些回忆放在心底，勇敢的继续往前走，寻找下一段更美好的回忆。

所有的不确定总是让人摸不着头绪。明知道他说的不是真的，心里总是有一部分选择相信他。
或许问个明白会让你好过一点，但也不能完全依赖他的回应来做决定。
如果他不能给你一个答案，那自己就要做出决定。会很难，但我知道你一定能够做出对你自己最好的决定。
做出决定后一定要坚持下去，不要因为其他的原因而动摇。加油！

而我呢？不想给自己寻找烦恼吧。在这个领域里，我没有信心做到最好。不是没有喜欢的，只是对我来说，喜欢和在一起是两回事。如果我没有信心，我就不会选择走下去。在还没陷得很深时及时把自己拉出来，伤害就不会那么深。也是一种自我保护吧。。。

there goes my break~

2008-09-26T21:05:00.003+08:00

haiz... 1 week of break and i did nothing enjoyable... starting of the break i'm already in skool doing project... went home on monday and concussed... first time in my life tat i concussed... haha... then did nothing on tue... jus wanna rest for one day... and played game and all... same for wed... thurs went to cut my hair.... haha... its super short now... like xiao mei mei... and my hair looks like a helmet... sobs... then today... went shopping... wanted to buy a new dress for pam's bdae party... but i didnt manage to get any... haiz... and now i really dunnoe wat to wear to her party... argh... and the bet i had wif wang and waiyee ytd... all the more i feel tat i will lose the bet... haiz... regretted... but i really hope tat i will win the bet... i wanna see them run in circle during the party!!!! haha... tat image jus makes mi wanna laugh... haha... haiz... but still there are things to be done... first is project... then is 3001 quiz on thurs... then is IA interview... finally got the notice for my interview... phew... haha... i will grab hold of this chance and perform well during the interview de!!!! jia you jia you jia you!!!! haha... but the first thing i need to settle is wat to wear for pam's bdae party!!! can somebody save mi????? haiz... i shall go think abt it... haha... bye peeps... will update the 2 parties tat i will attend tml wif my new camera!!!! haha....

my nite in skool com lab

2008-09-22T04:31:00.003+08:00

woohoo... haha... first time spending my nite in skool com lab... haha... experience is cool... and i'm still quite awake... u can see the time... haha... now then i start blogging... haha... all my grpmates sleep liao lor... and i'm still using the com... haha... wif their other frend... who is watchin g a movie now... keep hearing her laughter... bet its a funny movie... haha... oh well... yeah... project... haha... done the part on the materials info and fabrication liao... later we will be doing on the selection and all... haha... super pia... haha... and i had done my simulation assignment already... but still stuck at question 5.... stupid... haha... and i haven listen to my online lect.... haha... still playing online game and all.. haha... ok ppl.... need to go study again... take care....

shoulder ache

2008-09-20T01:08:00.003+08:00

haiz haiz... my shoulder is aching again... getting old i think... been having this problem since secondary skool... but the last time i rmb having it is secondary skool... haha... when i'm still using the old com... and it coming back again... argh... its killing mi... and i think is my sitting position when i'm using the com... was using the com in mse com lab in the noon when the ache started coming back... then wang ask mi to make the chair higher... then not so pain... but still hurts... haiz... and is still hurting now... old lady liao...

haiz... worried worried... so many things to worry... when can i stop worrying? how i wish life is as easy as ABC... IA, project, assignment... everything is coming tgt... haiz... stressed... even though i'm stressed, i still got time to think of other not impt stuff... my god... i jus dun understand y m i like tat... is it tat the thing is really unimpt or is it equally impt... i oso dunnoe...

best is to HACK CARE!!!!! who cares if it is impt or not... jus do ur best... nv to regret...

bleah... got to get back to project... take care peeps... hope u all like my new blogskin... i love the attitude... haha...

a new look

2008-09-16T21:50:00.008+08:00

haha... i change blogskin again... even though i'm so busy wif skool work... haha... well... jus wanna change a new look... no dark and emo... but sunny and bright!!! haha... i think the skin is so cute... haha... i kinda think tat i'm acting cute... but... wat can i do??? haha... i hope i dun make ppl puke... haha... hope a new sunny and bright look will make my days sunny and bright... haha...

人与人之间的感情真让人伤脑筋
总是让人摸不着头绪
是该勇敢面对问题还是选择逃避
众人总是以逃避来做回应
努力过的感情
没有那么容易抛弃
不要一直认为是对方的问题
有时也要自我反省
想办法把距离拉近
才能维持关系
对方或许也在努力
所以请不要放弃
请不要选择一人哭泣

我又生病了

2008-09-14T22:53:00.003+08:00

haha... yup yup... 我又生病了... haha... this is the second time this sem... haiz... lousy mi... i guess its the rain tat day when mi and wang go jogging in skool... was drenched then went to eat breakfast... nv bath immediately... haha... tats why... i immediately fall sick when i reach home... AH CHOO~

well... last entry was abit emo... haha... cos was doing some self reflection... then i confessed my sins... then i learn some thing.... 人家害你不要紧，你不要害人家就好... haha... i will learn from it de... haha....

如果有一天你在淋雨，你会喜欢拿伞给你的男生还是会喜欢陪你淋雨的男生？

so sick

2008-09-12T20:10:00.003+08:00

so sick
of having selfish thoughts,
of poking my nose into other ppl's business,
of thinking whats in other ppl's mind,
of tolerating all those shit,
of being nice,
of being a perfectionist,
of putting my heart into everything....

so sick of myself...

memories

2008-09-09T20:29:00.003+08:00

was packing my room when i found this box tat i had nv touched and opened for a veri long time.... a box full of memories... read every single letter in the box... birthday cards full of wishes... happy times jus flow back so quickly... i miss those days... i miss those ppl... "we will be frends 4eva and u better not forget abt mi"... i miss her... i nv forget abt her... but ppl change with time... i changed... i think she changed too... i wonder if she miss mi too...

its time to throw that box away... a box tat i once love alot... although its made out of a nike shoe box, its still something made wif love... those cards and letters written by the person is still so sweet... however, i guess its time to say goodbye... u can nv keep everything wif u... all those memories shld be kept in a new box... a bigger box for more happy memories...

prezzz

2008-09-08T21:53:00.007+08:00

haha... yup yup... abit slow in uploading my present's pic... haha... my first present... received from my bro... ipod nano... love it...

haha... nx up... of cos is from my dearest mummy... key to the whole new world... pretty pretty...

then presents from frends and cousins... first up... a present from zhongming... sweet...

then... present from aunt, cousins and nevin... :)

not forgetting my uni babes... oh... almost forgot there is waituck too... so is uni babes and waituck... haha... a big box of presents from them... love u guys so much... muacks!!!!

lastly... one and only one in the world... my kaypoh spongy queen from my darling yuexiang... muacks!

haha... thank you so much!!!! love the presents lots and lots... and oso not forgetting those ppl who rmb my bdae and wished mi via sms... like my JC babes... and oso my sec skool babes... and my elaine who is in hong kong now actually send mi a bdae card!!! so sweet of her... I LOVE U BABES!!!!!

welcome to the real world

2008-09-03T22:45:00.003+08:00

haiz... have been so busy these few days... projects and IA... and skool work as well... so much to catch up... IA have been giving mi a huge headache... really dunnoe wat company to choose... resume and all... argh... my angmoh jus suck... hope i can get thru it...

so many things had happen... from my bdae until now... no wonder i'm so busy...

after all these stuff, i learnt something new... the world is jus not i tot to be... everybody is playing mind games... political issues and all... i hate playing mind games... why cant they jus speak wats in their mind? u nv noe when will ppl jus stab u at the back... to survive in this harsh world, dun act smart... dun be selfish as well...

welcome to the real world...

Happy 21st Birthday to ME!!!!

2008-08-27T23:08:00.005+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday to mi!!! haha... 21 yr old le... haha... its time to grow up and be mature... haha... all i wan to say it thanks for the gifts and wishes... i feel so blessed wif all of u ard mi... thank you so much!!!! love u guys so so so much!!!

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO MI

AND MY DARLING YUEXIANG!!!

rainy days

2008-08-25T23:40:00.003+08:00

hmmm... attended huiyu's 21st bdae party on fri... haha... she was so busy wif her guest and all... and her penguin bdae cake is so cute... then she opened her present and the most interesting and out of expectation is a tefal frying pan... haha... so special huh... haha... yup... then we spent our nite at her house where wang and waiyee watch gu huo zai, yin and cindy sleep, huiyu playing her new nds and mi? play com... haha... then we went to sleep at ard 4plus am... haha....

it had been raining these few days... i love raining days... i like the cooling and emo feel... rainy days make ppl feel emo... and i do feel emo too... but i like rainy days... cos i can snug into my cosy blanket... haha... i jus feel tat this is the only time when u will feel warmth... hmmm... so cosy... haha... yah... i do feel emo too... sometimes u jus need to feel emo i guess... not everyday sunny day... have been thinking the same old question again... haiz... maybe its jus time for mi to let it go and stop thinking abt it... cos nothing is going to change... its hard... but i noe i can do it...

went to celebrate my 21st bdae wif my uni babes today... haha... intent to pay for the dinner cos i'm going to have a bdae party... so wanted to treat it as a bdae party jus for mi and them... but in the end huiyu keep stuffing the money back to mi... followed mi into the toilet and all... haha... super funny... stuff into my belt, my jacket... haha... while running away and "fighting" wif her, my tube drop down without mi realising it... haha... lucky i was wearing my jacket... haha... i only realise it when i'm in the toilet... haha... and my super chui bag spoil... haha... lousy bag tat i bought in thailand... haiz... chui bag... lucky still can repair... haha... if not waste money... haha... and babes... its not ur fault ok... u guys nv spoil my bag... my bag is already chui... haha...hmmm... i guess its the rainy weather and the period of the month, everybody was so tired and all... but its ok... haha... i did had fun... haha... thanks babes...

yes yes... bdae is coming... everybody is asking mi wat i wan... but i really didnt have anything in mind... no wish list no nothing... every yr's wish is the same... hope my studies will be good, may god bless my family and frends wif good health and happiness... nothing new for this special bdae i guess... jus wanna celebrate it peacefully... nothing fanciful... jus mi and my family...

希望越高，失望越大。。。

jus one more wish... wanna change for a better... 不再是个什么都相信的女孩。。。

new blog skin again

2008-08-21T23:54:00.004+08:00

haha... yup yup... i got myself a new blogskin again... haha... jus like to change something new... but as usual its black in colour... haha...

anyway... yr 3 life is so stressful and boring... no more electives cos i cleared them already... all core modules left... most of the days my lesson starts at 1030... and i end my lessons at 430... so sucky... hate to go home late... then there is this design module which require so much of my time on it...only 8 weeks left and we had done nothing... SO STRESS!!!!! haiz... i hate project...

so many things had happen these few weeks... and i'm so tired of it... so sick and so helpless abt everything... maybe becos everything came tgt, i wasnt able to think like wat i usually will... seems to be losing myself... sometimes i jus think tat i am the one that causes all those troubles coming for mi... i'm jus too kpo i guess... a big sponge if u wan to use the "in" word now... haha... its hard being a sponge... knowing too much is not good... absorbing other ppl's problems but not able to release own problems... i need to learn how to "squeeze" all the water out... haha... anyway... i'm over the period of troubled times... haha... back to the normal self... haha... i will jia you de!!!

love this song so much... i dunnoe y but i will have a sad pic in my mind when i listen to this song... maybe its sad enuff... i jus love sad songs...

郭静-知道

她让你憔悴许多
她让你不知所措
她一举一动你不停的对我说
我微笑倾听你说
我却越听越心痛
怎么你说的不是我
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你心中逗留
我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动
你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
你一句一动我的心被牵着走
她不经意的走过
你就把我给冷落
嫉妒把我给吞没
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你心中逗留
我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动
我知道了她哪里比我好很多
在你心中我永远不可能会让你心动
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我在你心中没有她多

goodie bags

2008-08-13T20:52:00.003+08:00

haha... the best thing abt the start of skool is the free goodie bags... haha... jus love them so much... all these is due to wang's influence... she is the goodie bag queen and she influenced all of us into the goodie bag craze... haha... always look out for goodie bag... haha... today went to queue for guo jing's concert tic liao then went to queue for goodie bag... super on man... haha...

today is xian's bdae!!!! haha... although she is in aus we promised to celebrate tgt via webcam... haha... gonna eat the cake infront of her!!!! haha... super lame but i think it will be fun... haha... and she is gonna do it for my bdae as well... haha...

ok peeps... got to go... haha... take care!!!!

A whole new semester

2008-08-05T21:52:00.004+08:00

finally its the start of skool again... attend lectures... print notes... same old routine... maybe i jus like my life to be like tat... routine... something i can follow... something organised... and not sit down and think what shld i do nx... but such life is so boring!!! but i cant help it... its better than doing nothing... and then u will start to think alot of stuff... haiz... somebody told mi that i always think too much... too much and too far... i think i am... realised it... but can do nothing abt it... always tell myself not to think so much but still... my brain is used to thinking... always in the process of thinking... sometimes there are things that might worked out well but due to my "effective processing brain" i do not have the courage to take the first step... and this might bring problems to other ppl... there are times when i'm tired of myself... being so... i dunnoe wats the right word to use man... i jus want to find the best solution to all the problems... tats y i keep thinking... but its useless... cos there can nv be a perfect solution... and then i will be angry wif myself... cos i cant think of a way to solve all those problems... how many times i had been angry wif myself? i cant even rmb...

there are so many things tat i wan to keep forever... and i try very hard to maintain them... but there are always ppl who dun appreciate and dun cherish them... they jus take them for granted... i tried my very best... but i nv seems to be good enuff...

there are so many things tat i do not noe wat to do... taking my time to try to do something abt it... but some of them cant wait... they need immediate decision... but i jus cant bring myself to decide... i'm scared... maybe i'm jus trying to avoid... to hide... to buy more time so i dun need to face them... i seems to be a burden to them... due to my indecisiveness...

haiz... so emo... argh... jus wanna pour out all the emo at one shot... haha... new sem le... need to start afresh... haha... need to 振作! need to make some changes for the better... saying goodbye to 20 yrs old soon... saying goodbye to the lousy mi as mentioned in front... 21 yrs old may be a brand new start, a brand new life for mi... haha... need to be more mature liao lor... 21yr old leh... haha... got to start preparing now... haha... yup yup!!!! jia you!!!! haha...

下雨天

2008-08-02T00:49:00.003+08:00

南拳妈妈-下雨天

下雨天了怎么办我好想你
不敢打给你我找不到原因
为什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景做你的代替
陪我等雨停
期待让人越来越沉溺
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累
怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不清那些
差别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉
期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累
怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不清那些
差别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉
怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不清那些
差别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜怎样的我能让你更想念？一个人撑伞一个人擦泪一个人好累。。。

但我早已习惯这样一个人生活。。。

i love SHINee

2008-07-27T22:05:00.002+08:00

haha... recently found out a new korean boyband... haha.. they are so cute... haha... and i like their song... they can dance super well!!!! so cool... haha... their name is SHINee... haha... so cute... haha... enjoy the video... love them!!!

好想要揮霍

2008-07-27T02:13:00.003+08:00

我穿戴整齊面對瘋狂的
世界不管今天
面對誰微笑是必須
就算妳不在意我微笑的原因
是我僅有的自信
我慌亂面對你轉身離開
不管未來快樂是不是
我的必需品
我只能再一次安靜作好準備
妳下一次出現
總在午夜夢醒家徒四壁
是甚麼包圍空虛
好想把我的全部都給你
一個人多平凡的期許
總在人潮散去瞬間覺醒
全身力氣得不到安寧
從不曾揮霍好想要揮霍
好讓明天繼續
我慌亂面對你轉身離開
不管未來快樂是不是
我的必需品
也許早已否定我所有的努力
愛已不會降臨
Baby，午夜夢醒家徒四壁
是甚麼包圍空虛
好想把我的全部都給你
一個人多平凡的期許
總在人潮散去瞬間覺醒
全身力氣得不到安寧
從不曾揮霍好想要揮霍
好讓明天繼續
我要的生活只有那麼一種
卻無法一個人點滴的過
直到今天還不能放開昨天的手
誰來救我
午夜夢醒家徒四壁
再沒有甚麼包圍空虛
好想把我的全部都給你
兩個人彼此間的必需
總在人潮散去瞬間覺醒
全身力氣得不到片刻安寧
從不曾揮霍好想要揮霍
好讓快樂繼續
從不曾揮霍好想要揮霍
沒有甚麼是必需

好想要揮霍... there are so much things i wan to do yet i couldnt... so much so much... there are so much problems coming up again... how i wish i could jus dun care abt them and they will return back to the original state... dun need to think for a explanation to those actions... not to fall into the same trick again... cant they jus let mi off??? i dun wanna get involve in such games anymore... cant i jus lead a normal and peaceful life?

freshmen orientation camp

2008-07-20T22:57:00.003+08:00

this camp made mi realise that some ppl are jus not cut up for big stuff... i tot it will be a fun one... but apparently its not... the only fun thing is to noe ben(aka tiu tiu-not the bad one used in canto to scold ppl k... haha...) and zhongming(aka gay)... they are super lame ppl... but at least they brighten up my days in camp... haha... glad to noe them... haha... fun part of the camp is usually at the end of each day... when we bitch and play games... and oso supper... haha... bet i put on a few more pounds after camping... haha... hmmm... tired is oso another word i will use to describe this camp... every day sleep for a few hrs... highest record is 2 days nv sleep... the most no. of hrs i sleep during camp is 5+ hrs... haha... and i came home and i sleep from 12 plus am to the nx day 1plus pm... haha... i'm so tired... holiday is like only left wif 2 weeks... haiz... haven enjoy much of it actually... got to plan how to spent my holidays... haha... looking forward to our uni chalet too... take care peeps...

last day of work

2008-07-12T23:38:00.003+08:00

tml is the last day of work... so happy abt it... finally come to an end... haha... cant wait man... then nx week will be camp... bought a few stuff for camp... shorts, sports bra and bottle... haha... hope it will be a fun one... will update u guys on the stuff tat happen during the camp!!!! haha... ok lah... will up date u guys again... must take care k... haha... bye bye....

pay day!!!!

2008-07-09T00:42:00.004+08:00

woohoo... ytd was pay day... but bought lots of stuff from mango... so... yah... haha... went to caldecott wif wang to watch superband... haha... the studio is actually quite small compared to wat i had imagine it to be... haha...

yup yup... my uni babes came back from their genting trip last sat... i think its an enjoyable trip for them... haha...but i'm sure it will be better if i'm ard... haha... kidding... anyway i got to attend mayling's 21st... tats y i didnt went wif them... mayling's 21st was an enjoyable one... was suppose to meet kayal... but she was super late due to her cousin's bdae party... so we reached ard 8plus... haha... oh well... of cos we cam whore again... haha...

mi and the birthday girl!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

haha... jac and xinni went home... so only left the 5 of us... tats the 4 of them... and mi? i'm the photographer of cos.... haha...

a big kiss for my sweet honey nazia!!!! MUACKS!!!!

oh... who's tat hot babe lying on those sexy laps huh... haha...

haha... too much birthday parties to attend... i jus feel tat a person shld not be alone on her bdae!!!! and birthday is very impt!!! although i'm not going to have a 21st bdae party, i'm still gonna celebrate it wif my family and my darling... haha... of cos... not forgetting all my babes... will meet up wif them... haha... u guys better be free!!!!

i finally got an ans for the problem tat i had... it was totally not wat i have expected... i hate surprises... they jus mix up my orderly life... i'm confused... sometimes i jus wished tat i'm not tat smart... as in i can always sense somethings are going on or there are some changes... how i wish i can jus be blur... so tat i wont noe the truth... got to stop acting smart... haiz... its late... tml still need to work... haha... take care peeps...

senior camp

2008-07-01T22:13:00.003+08:00

so many things had happened these few days... busy busy busy... wat i wanted my life to be... haha... last thurs and fri worked late shift sat and sun senior camp mon work full shift... woohoo... hectic isnt it? haha... finally a rest day today and i went to catch a movie wif my darling... haha... when i'm free, i jus dunnoe wat to do... watch tv? go online watch videos? hmmm... or is it tat i'm jus too lazy to do anything? nvm... lets jus tok abt those interesting things tat happened...

ytd was a record breaking day... i met 3 weird customers... they are really super weird... i jus cant stand them... life in mango makes u see all sorts of ppl that exist on this earth... u will be shock to realise such ppl do exist... haha... they really made mi rolled my eyes and -_-"'... haha... oh and after work i went swensens wif my colleagues mary, joanna, chang sheng and my darling... was a farewell party for mary and joanna... they leaving singapore to england to do research!!! so good... haha... i will miss them so much... life in mango without them is like hell... haha... anyway i'm going to quit soon... so its ok... haha... need to enjoy the few weeks of my holiday... haha...

nx is senior camp... i dunnoe wat to say abt it... lots of funny things happened... but was too tired to enjoy the camp... was glad tat ahmad was there on the second day to cheer mi up... haha... too much time was wasted on the first day jus to wait for them to come to our station... then mi and waiyee jus chat... haha... some interesting topic was brought up... it was a nice chat... haha...

somethings have been bothering mi this few days... i wonder if i can solve it... haha... i guess i need some time to figure it out...

busy life

2008-06-25T00:10:00.002+08:00

haha... so long nv blog le... shall update u guys abt my life briefly... finished my special sem and immediately went back to mango to work... life was so busy... everyday work work work... work for consecutive 6 days... was so tired... and there are lousy customers who ruin ur whole day... scold u bitch and says tat she can buy th whole shop and wat we earn are peanuts to her... suck... then have to go for FOC meeting during my lunch break... i'm jus too busy... maybe i need to be kept busy... if not i will start thinking abt things tat i dun wan to... sometimes i jus feel tat i'm such a fool... believe in every words ppl say... i take an effort to rmb all the things they say yet they treat my words like nothing... even when i noe wat they say are not true i still feel sad when i really found out tat its not true... i jus cant learn from those past experience huh... how many times do i need to get hurt be4 i learnt? haha... lousy mi... time to grow up... haha... or is it the karma tat i need to experience due to the bad things i did? hmmm... most prob... haha... i think i shld stop doing bad things... haha... going to be busy again... haha... ok... finish updating.. haha... will update u guys again!!! take care peeps... cos i down wif flu again... take care yah.... :)

little stories of my life

The Only Exception

Peace

Wild Wild Wildwood West~

a little lost

我很好那麼你呢?

We are the world 25 for Haiti

Pride and Prejudice

Quest for Immortality

Happy 23rd Birthday Waiyee!!!!!!

Ultimate Goon Doo

human nature

Happy 2010!

New Year Resolution

SCOOMB holidays :(

掉了

in the midst of exam

The Princess and the PIG

HW310 Professional Communication 2009

糖心风暴 家好月圆

Project S

the baseballs

坏人

eye bags

Recess Week!!!

nitghmare

The Blower's Daughter

happy 22nd birthday

我的依賴

Last Lap

exhausted

A small mini break

"You Can't Have Me"

心墙

the run

UNFAIR

Lead a Happy Life

the meaning of pain

Random

its summer time!

Stairways to Haven - Old School

好累

IA Scandal

Record

Dirty Little Secrets

Boys Before Flower

安全區

Nothing is more important than health

You Found Me

wedding

Love Story - #100 entry

enough

project runaway

不是我不明白

爱有千百万种定义

Chinese New Year and Sentosa Flower 2009

甜蜜蜜

Breast Cancer cells

new year new skin

HAPPY 2009!!!

Merry Christmas

lips of an angel

after exam...

mugging

Ah Yuan's 21st Brhtday Party

S.H.E - 612星球

忠实听众

birthday party

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另外一首猜不透

top on hate list

Love You Anyway

猜不透

hectic life

disappointment

幸福

something is wrong...

当你离开的时候

there goes my break~

糖心风暴家好月圆